Well – Happy Birthday to me :p Yup today I turn 31 … and YES, that’s a hard number to admit or say out loud  but every time I do I feel this pressure within which pushes me forward … it is now impossible for me to walk around pretending that I still have my whole life ahead of me anymore …

This doesn’t bring me down, or makes me feel bad – in fact it inspires me, it gets me excited to wake up at 6am AND it has finally forced me to step up and take my life “seriously”.

Yesterday, while contemplating the concept of getting older, I of course couldn’t help but to go back and think about the past.

I started thinking about the things I have or haven’t done, the people who have come and gone, and all the different paths I have chosen in the last 12 years – the good, the bad and how they all have affected my growth towards a freedom lifestyle.

Some Background.

When I left high school, unlike most 18 years olds who have no idea what they will do with their life – I had 9 different career paths planned out – my issue wasn’t which university to go to, but which PATH to pick …

Was I going to become a ski instructor like dad and travel the world skiing? Was I going to become a famous sports/news photographer and travel the world taking photos? Was I going to become a professional french horn player?

These were my top 3 choices and to be 100% honest every single one of them sounded PERFECT – I really could not decide – so what did I do?

I gave in to external pressure (from family, friends, music teachers, universities) and picked the one I was currently best at – playing French horn … this was my expected path in life – I was already earning money from the skill set, I was traveling around New Zealand playing with different orchestras and everyone was talking about my future in the industry – basically I HAD TO DO IT …

Was it the right choice? I don’t know, but 5 years later – after finally gathering up enough courage – I QUIT …

I was only 3 months away from graduating with a Masters in Performance Music from the Swedish National Orchestra Academy and everything was going amazingly: I was playing better than ever, I was confident, and I was really happy with my ability to play the French horn at a professional level … then one day I just woke up, realised this isn’t what I want to do with my life, sold my French horn and walked away … everyone I knew was devastated, they just couldn’t understand – why?! Why would he just throw this away?!?!

So What Happened?

I had finally been able to admit to myself something which I had felt creeping up within my core for many MANY years, I just never had the courage to admit it or act on it.

I was afraid of disappointing everyone who “believed in me” – but I knew this was a long time coming (why do you think I got into self-help/dating 2 years earlier) – I knew that I was destined to do bigger and better things than simply playing classical music.

I Finally Felt Free …

I finally felt free … I finally felt like I could do anything with my life … I finally had the core confidence to stand up for myself and not give in to other peoples expectations when it came to MY LIFE …

After I quit classical music and my masters degree I decided to travel the world with Sofia. We grabbed a camera, and started a travel blog not having any idea what would come from this decision … or what I would do with my life – but at least I knew I was doing what I really wanted to do – I had started to create my own path …

And Now …

6 years later I am sitting here on my 31st birthday WORKING … not because I have to, not because someone else told me to but simply because I WANT to:

My life has become my passion, my work has become my life and everything I do has become everything I want and everything I need.

I never expected to end up in this exact situation – working on 2 awesome projects and enjoying every stressful second of it, but if I look deeper – my current life choice gives me the foundations of everything I thought I needed and everything I wanted for a lifestyle of freedom.

At one time I thought classical music could give that to me, or becoming a ski instructor would, or a professional photographer … but I have finally realised that it doesn’t matter WHAT I DO, all it matters is that I am doing what I WANT TO DO …